Change

Hi there! It has been a while. I haven't written for a while and its because of some changes. Reading back through some one my posts I was thinking about all of the wonderful learning opportunities I have been given. I have learned a lot about family and have had some very inspirational moments because of the courses I have taken, but my life has taken a turn. All of the sudden I feel like I don't know anything again, and I am sure it is not the last time that I will feel this way.

This last May I got married. It was beautiful, amazing, and everything I ever wanted. I didn't marry the man that I always dreamed of.... I married the man that God knew I needed and he is so much more than I ever could have asked for. He is so patience with me and so understanding; and the Lord knew that he had to be. I have been going under this amazing, but challenging transformation since I got married. All the things that I have learned about family could never prepare me completely for starting one of my own.

Somehow I lost myself. I don't know if it was before the wedding or sometime soon after, but I did. I was taking on so many new roles that I became a little numb. I wasn't sure what I liked any more or what I wanted to do with my time. I didn't like work, school, crafts, being out doors, and the list go's on and on. Just all of the sudden I found myself not finding joy in any of the little things that use to give me such happiness. But why?? I should have been so happy! I just got married!

Well this is what I have discovered.....

In life we take on many roles; son, daughter, husband, wife, aunt, uncle, niece, etc. those are things that don't change a lot, once you are a daughter you will always be a daughter, even after your parents are gone. Then you have roles that do change and that you become on and off(moms will really understand this); student, worker, friend,  therapist, comforter, nurse, maid service, chef, interior decorator, detective, jailer, and I could go on and on. But somewhere in there we have to realize that no matter what role we play we have to find joy in it. This is where I got lost.

I started to just fulfill my roles instead of letting my roles be fulfilling.

I stopped taking the time to just let my surrounding bring me joy. I stopped letting the people around me bring me joy, and that has hurt my relationship with some of them. Whether they see it or not, I have. And I am really sorry for that.

So, I guess my point is that only you can make your situation a bright one. You have to choose everyday to be happy, to love those that love you, and to enjoy what you have been blessed with.

Choose right now to be happy :D 

Just a little side note for everyone, this is going to be the way I blog now. I will still share things That I have learned in classes but I what to make it more personal. The major reason for this is because this is going to be my last semester in school and so real life learning is what I am going to be majoring in. Hope that's okay!

!!!!!!!!Thank You For Reading!!!!!!!